Terri Norris of Kalamazoo, MI, USA
For you shall go out in joy, and be led back in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall burst into song, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. -Isaiah 55:12
I have found myself in a season of uncertainty. A month ago I unexpectedly lost my job. I would have never believed it would happen, having worked every day of my life since the age of 17 and always able to provide for myself and family. I grew up in a home where money was tight, and I made a commitment to myself that I would never be in a financial struggle. Well, needless to say, I lost my job and my insurance; my heart was broken with rejection. I was let go without a reason. I worked for an “At Will” employer, and I was no longer wanted as part of the organization.
Rejection has been a recurring theme throughout my life, my parents divorced when I was in second grade; my husband left me for another woman when our son was in second grade. I have always felt like an outsider looking into everyone else’s happy life.
God has never rejected me, and I know He never will. I am his daughter, and He is my Lord. He has blessed me in countless ways over the years with my career as well as opportunities for promotion. I would have never dreamed this day would come, but it has and I believe this is an opportunity to draw closer to my Father, who loves and adores me.
The struggle to trust in God alone in this situation has been so difficult. I am so used to having an element of control over my life; God has asked me to give up that control, and be fully dependent upon him. I am praying for God to help me with my doubt and unbelief so I can be guided me to something greater. I know that God does not want me to settle for anything less and continues to remind that He is God and anything is possible. My greatest dreams could be surpassed, and I could very well find myself somewhere I could have never imagined. My hope is in God and God alone.
“Over the years we melt into what we seek” (Joan Chittister, The Liturgical Year).
We are in the threshold between seasons in the Christian calendar. You may have been noticing the physical transitions of the seasons wherever you live as some enter the depths of winter and others the warmth of summer. The seasons are a visible reminder that even among the most predictable rhythms and routines of our lives, change is always happening. The events of our moments, days, weeks, years form us and transform us over time. We enter each season different from when we arrived here last. This is the nature of this cyclical journey of faith. In these final days of the Christian calendar and the season of Ordinary time, there is opportunity to take a sacred pause, to notice how you arrive in this threshold. What have you been formed by this year? What has been deepening you as you’ve lived through another cycle of this life of faith?
Today’s Prayer for Peace
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